The baby coming is feeling very real. I feel really pinched by time demands. There are house projects to finish... but no weekends to do them in (tomorrow pm is hang-out with my friend on leave from Mosul Iraq and meet his new fiance'. Saturday is go to a morning music planning meeting then a skeet shoot that I've helped plan for a few minutes before leaving for a wedding... and ending the day at a different friend's bachelor party... which of those do I say no to?)
I know that my wife is seeing the days slipping by... and the task list is not getting much shorter. I feel like I've got a little more than I can chew going on... it makes me pretty ineffective at almost everything. I can't quit work. I can't stop worship at church. I can't quit birthing class.
Forgive me if I'm sounding like a whiner. I really don't mean to. Every one of these things is a blessing in my life. It's just hard to see a way through that includes everything getting done. I can see my margin running thin on some days. I start to get angry at "safe" things like the publication project at work that I can't seem to get done.
I love how you're honest about your frustrations. I have so much respect for you and how you want to make the best for us.
ReplyDeleteI am confident that it will work out...it is just hard to see the forest through the trees right now...especially when they're getting their branches tangled in our hair and tugging at our shirts.
God will make a way, and eventually we'll look back on all of this craziness and exclaim, "what were we so stressed out about?!?"
I love you.
Thanks Grammy ( and Bunny )
ReplyDeleteI think a lot about how busy we (collectively) are. I'm pretty sure that this isn't the way people have lived in the past... however I'm don't know what is making the difference. (this is my first lifetime) We don't watch tv at all (there's no time). We don't watch movies very much... It feels like everything we're involved in is worthy...? It will help when the lioness is working less. I notice that life feels much less stressful on days that she is home. :-)
Thanks for grace :-)